Friday, March 6, 2009

Confession Time

I'm not sure if it's the bed rest, lack of sleep, spring fever, pregnancy hormones - or a combination of all of the above - but goodness, gracious, I have to be honest when I say that I've just kind of been down this past week.

I'm ready for the day when I can reclaim this body of mine, I am.

Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful to have this life growing inside of me, and I'm so anxious and excited to meet our little girl.

I'm just also so weepy and emotional...

I think I've been having a difficult time lately with my body and this pregnancy. I don't recognize the person in the mirror anymore, and I'm tired of the hurtful comments sometimes received about my appearance. Some of the comments are not meant to be hurtful - like when I hear people talking about how big I already am. I know they're just surprised and curious, and don't mean any true harm by it. And yes, they do have some right to take notice, as it's true that I'm measuring a little bigger than I should according to my OB. But then there are the comments made which are downright mean and hurtful, and are usually done in front of a group of people, which only makes me feel worse and more self-conscious. Specifically when someone comments on how fat my cheeks are, and worse yet, has started pinching them and referring to them as jowls.

I am quite aware that pregnancy = weight gain. With that and all of the other changes my body is going through, I don't need the not-so-kind reminders. I am quite conscious that I may sport a double chin sometimes (or maybe I just think I do), but I don't need to be reminded. Seriously, I'm getting to a point where I don't want to see people at all, for fear of what they might think or outright say about how I look. And to think I have three more months of this. How big will I be by the end of this?

I'm just tired of the insensitivity.


On a lighter note, check out Polyvore for some fun fashion creativity. Here are some of my "spring" creations. So looking forward to this new season, some warmer weather, and changing the clocks this weekend to gain an extra hour of day light!

Sea Green
Sea Green - by kierrala on

Pink Meets Brown
Pink Meets Brown - by kierrala on

Bohemian Rhapsody
Bohemian Rhapsody - by kierrala on


Kendra said...

I'm so sorry that you have had to deal with mean things like that. I honestly don't know why people are the way they are sometimes!! I say to them "stick it in your ear" and just enjoy (as much as you can) being pregnant and the freedom it allows in not worryign about how big you get--its all in giving that baby what she needs so your body will do what it needs--no worries! :-)

3 Peas in a Pod said...

People don't realize how hurtful their well-intentioned comments are. They're hard to get past sometimes. Try not to let them get you down. I thought you looked absolutely radiant in the picture you posted a couple of days ago!

When I was preggo with my first son I had to take prednisone (steroid) starting at 8 months pregnant. Luckily at the time I had only gained 17 lbs. I literally doubled my weight by the time I gave birth and had more than a double chin. Probably a triple or quadruple chin. I also had a moon face from the steroid. I felt exactly like you do and didn't want to see anyone. I hope people can keep their comments in check until you give birth to your beautiful little girl.

Loved your fun fashion!! Makes me even more excited for the warmer weather.

I know it's hard but try to hang in there.

Much love from NJ,

Jodi said...

Thank you, ladies. You are too sweet!