Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Truths

I have to be honest about something - Ernie and I were completely taken aback by the news of a girl. The reason being because we were both secretly hoping for a boy.

I know that the most important thing is to have a healthy baby, but we're both a little disappointed with the news. I feel horrible for saying that, but it's true. I always wanted to have a boy first, and then a girl if I were to have more children. I myself always thought it would be so wonderful to have an older brother growing up. And I wanted that for my own daughter one day. I know Ernie is disappointed. He was excited about the thought of a boy (You have to understand too - Ernie doesn't like babies all that much, so for him to have been excited about a boy is a big deal) - to be able to bond with him over cool toys, teach him boy things, and most importantly, to be able to pass on his name. A boy would have been the 4th (hubby is the 3rd), and Ernie wants more than anything to be able to pass on his grandfather's name. His grandfather was extremely important to him, and passed away a few years ago.

I simply can't fathom what it's going to be like to be the mommy to a girl. It seems so foreign to me. I feel let down, and I feel like my husband is let down too.

I feel horrible for saying these things, but I'm being honest. Any advice?

And for those asking about names, we don't have anything picked out for a girl - still working on that one. (Ernie has "veto power" and seems to veto everything I like!).

2 comments:

Melissa W. said...

You know, it will make you feel better to know that I was disappointed about Cameron being another boy. Mostly because Cameron may be my last child, especially due to the endometroisis last year.

It's hard to not feel disappointed when you had your heart wrapped around the thought of one gender or another. I promise you, though, that when this baby is born, your heart will fall in love with it and you will forget all about the initial disappointment.

It'll be alright. You and Ernie will be alright with a girl. It's a whole different ball game, but you will both be fabulous parents and Ernie will figure out how much fun the "girlie" side of life can be!

*hugs*

TessaAnnWatte said...

I truly belive in my heart that once you both see that sweet little face starring up at you both for the first time.....that is a little part of you and a little part of Ernie, your disappointment will forever diminish. Both of your hearts will be filled with love.

I know it :)

Many hugs, Jodie!